Choose LOVE
The first time, I fell in love. It was an act of forgiveness; forgiving myself for ever doubting that I am worthy. Forgiving every hurt, and doubt, allowing the flame of love to purify the gates of brass around my heart. The thousand cuts I'd received from loss, abuse, walking backs, love taken for granted. Letting the heart of someone else hold my hand and be my compass. The second time, I chose to love myself. Ruthlessly and unapologetically. Walked away from the only man I'd ever fallen for, the only man who knew what my heart looked like. The wounds re-opened again bringing back the once silenced voice of past demons. Self love hurt. What I thought would look like rainbows and unicorns was really a picture of a house going up in flames. The third time, I chose to love Love. I chose God. Saw a breathtaking reflection of his heart for me ushered in and shrouded by fire, began to unravel themselves. In his whispers to my ears, his words to my heart. From friends to guardian angels. My self love hurt, and God took it and gave me beauty for my ashes. And for that I will always choose LOVE. ❤️💛💚💙💜🖤💝